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Name: Dominique
Location: Georgia, United States
Birthday: 1/22/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: God. music. dance. true friendship. interior design. fashion
Expertise: Design, Fashion, Friendship,
Occupation: Other
Industry: Other
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AIM:  vishis22
Member Since:
12/21/2004
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| so im supposed to be learning patience and how to constantly walk in the spirit. my roommates tell me that i have a split personality. one of them asked me how i could be so loving and compassionate one day and almost full of hatred the next. i dont ever see myself as "full of hatred" but i know i would not be a good person to upset. i didnt understand at first but now its crystal! walking in the spirit or not. its really simple. i have spent the last few months "dying to myself" and all the things that i thought that i needed to get rid of, God has put them in me on purpose. i saw a movie last night that inspired and enouraged me. i thought that was it. that i was better now, that i could make it. this morning i woke up and didnt quite feel the same way. sometimes i find myself sitting and just look of into space thinking that im gonna wake up from a nightmare. i used to make fun of daydreamers, thinking that they were just wasting time. now i sit and wish and hope for my days here to end and for the Lord to come for me. Where do the encouragers go to be encouraged. im surrounded by "loved ones" and im only to look to Christ. what if hes not speaking. what if i cant hear him speaking, or what if im not trying hard enough. constantly comparing myself to those around me, never really feeling alive. my last entry said that things were changing. i still want to believe that. God IS the same as he was yester. HE will not change. He will only move when HE wants. PATIENCE.... what does it look like to wait for God to change our circumstances for an entire year? yes, we can read the word and find out, but to live and breathe patience.... we cant rush God, nor can we be angry at him. its not the situation that God is concerned with, nor do i believe he is in any hurry to make us feel better or be happy or even make us smile. However, i DO believe that he wants to change our hearts and will do anything in order for us to look like his SON. so things ARE changine. yeah changing. IM........................................................changing.
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| im in the gator state. holla asap peace!! | | |
| i woke up at about 830 to look at cartoons but they are all re-runs. that sucks. anyway. so i believe God is ready to move me to the next level in my life but i think im having a hard time with the transition. i know how to live in this world, but he's teaching me how to live in it for him. like i said, i believe im at the end of myself and confused and uncertain about alot of things. however, i am sure of who i an for the kingdom and what He has call me to do. my flesh will not keep up with my spirit and i think i allow that exscuse to be the reason for me slacking all too often. im tired of making promises and im tired of say " Lord i wont do that any more" or " i gonna do this every day". i believe i have let WORKS consume me. and that i need to get back to the basics. i remember my walk being so simple. but they say, the more you know, the harder it is not to miss out on grace. i just to dont want that to be a copout though. i should be different, i should stand out ( in a holy way ). God is and has always been faithful. its me who doesnt stay true to who i am. when the Lord tells us its time for a blessing, why do we always think that he means a "stuff" blessing. how come we never assume that he means a spiritual blessing. thats really a new concept for me! it really is. well thats where im at today. lemme know what you think.
red roses
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| lets see. i have had a tuff past couple of weeks. like i said i didnt get that job that i wanted and im still not sure why yet but what ever. what i did get though is reasurance that im doing what i should be for the kingdom and that i am who God says i am. i Have grown alot and i Have changing alot but i still have so much more to do. i am tired of myself though.... anyway, God is still providing and and still being faithful, man how easy it is for us to give up when we can see or understand why things are the way they are. why isnt our relationship with him enough?!
i know so much about me it makes me sick... am i starting to ramble. i was gonnna recap whats being going on for the past couple of weeks but if you know me then you already know. so never mind. any questions just give me a call.
red roses...
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| wow i have so much to say right now, i just dont know what it is yet. fill yall in asap. | | |
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